I love the Olympics. They are so inspiring. I was discussing with Frank this morning that there has to be an increase in gym attendance during the Olympics. Watching it makes me want to get back in to the gym even more than I already do.
I walked on the treadmill tonight. Between 2.5 and 2.9 for 2 miles. I'm mentally struggling with this so much more than I should be. I understand that doing anything at all is great. But every time somebody got onto the treadmill next to me I mentally explained to them that I wasn't being a slacker but that I'm actually recovering from surgery. GRrrr... take it slow Jessica.
Monday, July 30, 2012
Monday, July 23, 2012
Over it.
I went for my 2 week follow up appointment today. The dr. said that I'm healing nicely, but he still wants me to take another week of resting before I go back to work. I'm ready to get back to a normal life AND not be in pain. But he says everything going on is normal and good.
So I weighed in at the dr.s office at 242. So freaking excited about that. I'm so so so ready to get back to working out.
So I weighed in at the dr.s office at 242. So freaking excited about that. I'm so so so ready to get back to working out.
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Going Crazy
I love being home. It just proves how badly I want to be a stay-at-home mom. But sucks that I can't do anything stay-at-home mom-ish. It makes me crazy looking around the house and seeing things that need to be done... laundry, dishes, cobwebs in the corners, kids room needs to be cleaned. And I cannot explain to you how badly I want to workout. I'm surrounded by my friends and loved ones that are working out. I love that it's all around me, it really helps when I can workout to stay motivated. I think I may go for a walk today. I'm going to call my doctor first and make sure it's okay. But I have to do something. You can only bounce between tabs on you computer so much before even that becomes boring.
On a different note, my eating. I'm, surprisingly, not eating a lot. Considering how bored I am, in the past food was my go to entertainment. But I haven't been going to the kitchen our of boredom. So that's a really big deal. But I don't feel like I'm making the best choices when I am eating. And my dinner portions have been slightly out of control. From this second on, I'm making better food choices. When I was doing my best with my food choices, I was journaling. I was journaling because I was in Weight Watchers. I'm not going back to weight watchers, but I do need to get back into journaling my food.
Add it to my goal list. Journaling my food.
On a different note, my eating. I'm, surprisingly, not eating a lot. Considering how bored I am, in the past food was my go to entertainment. But I haven't been going to the kitchen our of boredom. So that's a really big deal. But I don't feel like I'm making the best choices when I am eating. And my dinner portions have been slightly out of control. From this second on, I'm making better food choices. When I was doing my best with my food choices, I was journaling. I was journaling because I was in Weight Watchers. I'm not going back to weight watchers, but I do need to get back into journaling my food.
Add it to my goal list. Journaling my food.
Monday, July 16, 2012
Goals
Hello World. Happy Monday. So I stated in my last post that I was going to work on my list of goals. So I did that over the weekend and this is what I've come up with, in no particular order.
1) Lose 75 more pounds total. I am currently weighing in at 245.6lbs. This would take me 170. With all things considered this would be just fine with me.
2) Get down to 200lbs by January 1st. This is an average of 2lbs/week. Now please understand that this is just a goal. I am not going to start starving myself, or running 20 miles a day, or in any other way start being irresponsible in order to obtain this goal. If I reach this goal, OUTSTANDING! If I don't I will still be on my way to better health
3) Become a Zumba instructor in 2013. This is when I would like to get my certification. So by next year I need to find out what it entails, and get my Zumba on!!
4) Plan my family meals weekly. This is something that I've always wanted to do, but our schedule has been so inconsistent that it's difficult to know when and who will be home at what time. Which leads me to...
5) Weekly family meetings so that everybody know who's going to be where at what time.:)
6) Also ties in with #4, eat out less. When I was growing up, eating out was a privilege. We only ate out on special occasions, other than that, it was out of the question. I would like to get back to that understanding.
7) I would like to grow my own foods. Now, I live in an apartment and I know summer is halfway over, but I can still do an herb garden. I have also been told that I can use my in-laws, and parents yards. So really space is not an excuse. But I do need to find out what I can plant at this point that won't be a bust because of the climate.
8) Buy locally. Every day I drive down Mt. Pleasant and pass all the signs that say, "Fresh tomatoes, fresh fruit. I also drive past the Farmer's Market and every day, and yet I still pull into the grocery store parking lot and buy their mediocre produce for way more than I should be spending on produce, from some unknown farm too far away. But my reasoning behind this is always the same, I don't carry cash, and they probably don't take credit cards. Which leads me to...
9) Budget. I try and I try and I try. But something always comes up, or I or somebody in my family wants something. I can't complain about the family not helping, but it's not just me. I really need to figure out how to budget and how to stick to it. So that I do have my grocery money that I can wisely spend on local foods, and not stop by the store and get something with my credit card, because it's convenient and easy.
10) I would like to go on vacation in 2013. Doesn't necessarily need to be a grand vacation to Disney World or a Cruise or anything of that nature. But a family vacation that creates memories.
11) I would like to be eligible for a significant raise in 2013. I love my job. And as much as we complain about not being paid enough, they are good about giving us a little teeny tiny itty bitty something each year in our paychecks. But my goal is to complete projects and decrease my error margin enough this year to be confident going to my superiors and saying, "I deserve a raise."
12) Blog consistently. I love my blog. I always wonder if I put enough in it to keep people reading. And I always remember that I don't need a huge following. I know I have people that glance at it every once in a while when I post a link And it's cool. A lot of people that are close to me don't know this, but I am actually very much an introvert (like my mother). In this past this has been perceived by people that don't know me as bitchy, or stand-offish. But a lot of that has to do with the fact that I was raised with a suck it up and move on mantra. I don't tell people my issues because they have their own issues to deal with. I let people in slowly to protect myself. But once you get to know me, I'm an open book. Ask me anything, I am more than willing to answer you honestly and to the best of my ability. And that's where my blog comes in. I'm not here to put up a pretty blog about how to make your life better or what you should do to be more like me. I have my blog so you can know the real me.
So those are my goals. Take it or leave it. <3 ya.
1) Lose 75 more pounds total. I am currently weighing in at 245.6lbs. This would take me 170. With all things considered this would be just fine with me.
2) Get down to 200lbs by January 1st. This is an average of 2lbs/week. Now please understand that this is just a goal. I am not going to start starving myself, or running 20 miles a day, or in any other way start being irresponsible in order to obtain this goal. If I reach this goal, OUTSTANDING! If I don't I will still be on my way to better health
3) Become a Zumba instructor in 2013. This is when I would like to get my certification. So by next year I need to find out what it entails, and get my Zumba on!!
4) Plan my family meals weekly. This is something that I've always wanted to do, but our schedule has been so inconsistent that it's difficult to know when and who will be home at what time. Which leads me to...
5) Weekly family meetings so that everybody know who's going to be where at what time.:)
6) Also ties in with #4, eat out less. When I was growing up, eating out was a privilege. We only ate out on special occasions, other than that, it was out of the question. I would like to get back to that understanding.
7) I would like to grow my own foods. Now, I live in an apartment and I know summer is halfway over, but I can still do an herb garden. I have also been told that I can use my in-laws, and parents yards. So really space is not an excuse. But I do need to find out what I can plant at this point that won't be a bust because of the climate.
8) Buy locally. Every day I drive down Mt. Pleasant and pass all the signs that say, "Fresh tomatoes, fresh fruit. I also drive past the Farmer's Market and every day, and yet I still pull into the grocery store parking lot and buy their mediocre produce for way more than I should be spending on produce, from some unknown farm too far away. But my reasoning behind this is always the same, I don't carry cash, and they probably don't take credit cards. Which leads me to...
9) Budget. I try and I try and I try. But something always comes up, or I or somebody in my family wants something. I can't complain about the family not helping, but it's not just me. I really need to figure out how to budget and how to stick to it. So that I do have my grocery money that I can wisely spend on local foods, and not stop by the store and get something with my credit card, because it's convenient and easy.
10) I would like to go on vacation in 2013. Doesn't necessarily need to be a grand vacation to Disney World or a Cruise or anything of that nature. But a family vacation that creates memories.
11) I would like to be eligible for a significant raise in 2013. I love my job. And as much as we complain about not being paid enough, they are good about giving us a little teeny tiny itty bitty something each year in our paychecks. But my goal is to complete projects and decrease my error margin enough this year to be confident going to my superiors and saying, "I deserve a raise."
12) Blog consistently. I love my blog. I always wonder if I put enough in it to keep people reading. And I always remember that I don't need a huge following. I know I have people that glance at it every once in a while when I post a link And it's cool. A lot of people that are close to me don't know this, but I am actually very much an introvert (like my mother). In this past this has been perceived by people that don't know me as bitchy, or stand-offish. But a lot of that has to do with the fact that I was raised with a suck it up and move on mantra. I don't tell people my issues because they have their own issues to deal with. I let people in slowly to protect myself. But once you get to know me, I'm an open book. Ask me anything, I am more than willing to answer you honestly and to the best of my ability. And that's where my blog comes in. I'm not here to put up a pretty blog about how to make your life better or what you should do to be more like me. I have my blog so you can know the real me.
So those are my goals. Take it or leave it. <3 ya.
Thursday, July 12, 2012
I'm back
So here I am. Post-op. I'm in bed. I think I did too much yesterday with the whole going from the bed to the couch thing. So I'm just staying in bed today. I am one of those rare cases that doesn't have a TV in my bedroom. So bed is pretty much... just bed. ha ha. Not complaining though, I hate having a TV in the bedroom. Just a thing. Anyway, so I have 4 incisions. Little bigger than I was expecting. Thanks Doc. I'm gonna have to say something to him about that. One of them is in my belly button, so when they put the "stitches" glue stuff over the incision the glued my belly button shut. um... weird. Let's see, with the assisted laparoscopy they have to blow up your abdomen to be able to see, so I'm bloated as hell. Not sure if that's why, but it makes since to me. Plus I get dizzy really easily, not sure if that's the Percocet or what, but I can't stand any longer than 5 minutes or so without the room spinning off it's axle. So that's the post-op stuff.
I have to tell you, we are so blessed. the church ladies have been over each night with dinner. Last night Frank went to Zumba so my church lady not only brought dinner but served it as well. I was telling my girlfriend AliMFD<3 that we needed bread for the girls lunch so she told on me (for not asking for help) to one of my moms. So my Terri-mom showed up with groceries and filled our pantry and refrigerator. So blessed. How do you even start to say thank you for so much blessings. I mean I know "thank you" is a good way to start, but it doesn't fully express the joy and love in our hearts for these people that give so much.
So I have to start my back to Zumba count down. I'm at looking at about 7 weeks. Unless the doctor says sooner, but it scares me, I'm not going to lie. Pre-op the doctor said 6-8 weeks, and he said, "Basically we want to avoid your guts falling out of your va***a." I love my doctor. He talks to me on my terms. I totally get that. I would like to avoid that too. So 7 weeks. August 27th. Monday night. Tamara's class. So while I'm down, I'm going to come up with my list of goals and a timeline. I'm excited.
I have to tell you, we are so blessed. the church ladies have been over each night with dinner. Last night Frank went to Zumba so my church lady not only brought dinner but served it as well. I was telling my girlfriend AliMFD<3 that we needed bread for the girls lunch so she told on me (for not asking for help) to one of my moms. So my Terri-mom showed up with groceries and filled our pantry and refrigerator. So blessed. How do you even start to say thank you for so much blessings. I mean I know "thank you" is a good way to start, but it doesn't fully express the joy and love in our hearts for these people that give so much.
So I have to start my back to Zumba count down. I'm at looking at about 7 weeks. Unless the doctor says sooner, but it scares me, I'm not going to lie. Pre-op the doctor said 6-8 weeks, and he said, "Basically we want to avoid your guts falling out of your va***a." I love my doctor. He talks to me on my terms. I totally get that. I would like to avoid that too. So 7 weeks. August 27th. Monday night. Tamara's class. So while I'm down, I'm going to come up with my list of goals and a timeline. I'm excited.
Sunday, July 8, 2012
The night before surgery
So I have my surgery tomorrow morning at 7:30. It's a little surreal. It hasn't really hit me yet that I'm having major surgery. So far I've thought about, what if I fart the whole time I'm on the operating table? I've blow dried my hair straight, because I know how much you can feel gross and not pretty in the hospital. So I figured blowing my hair straight would at least let me feel good about that. I've done the cleaning regimen that they gave me to do. Now it's really just a matter of getting to sleep so that I'll be able to wake up on time in the morning. Am I missing anything? I don't know. I guess it's a good thing that I live about 15 minutes from the hospital. Well, keep me in your prayers. Keep my doctors in your prayers. I'll update you in a few days.
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Say Whaaaa?
So my mom facebooks me this morning... yeah, she's that cool. And says, "Hey get out of bed and meet me up at the gym for some cardio." So of course I can't say no to my mom, so I lace up and get the kids out the door and we head to the gym. So we get on the eliptical, because I feel that the elipitcal gives you a more accurate measurement of your workout that a treadmill does. Please correct me I'm wrong on this because I really don't know. So my mom and I both set our elipticals on random hill at level 2 for 30 minutes. I put in my weight and she didn't. and we start and the exact same time. So we're running along talking, listening to our music, watching all the tvs. I look down and it says 10 minutes and it says that I've run 3 miles. HOLY SHIT!!! Now, I love to run, but I have never been a fast runner. I normally run about a 15 min/mile. So I look at my mom's machine and it says that at 10 minutes she has run .75 miles. WTH?!?! So okay, whatever, well by the end of the 30 minutes, my machine claimed that I ran 9 miles. I started to look at my skin to see if I had gotten a nice little caribbean tan too. So what's the deal? At 30 mins my mom had gone a mile and a half or so. I'm feelin' like my mom's was more accurate. So what happened? At one point I slowed my pedals down to stay even with my mom and it said that my RPM was 65 and hers was 45. And the only difference was that I put in my weight and she didn't. IDK. I'm not saying all of this to compare to my mom directly but more to the frustration that now i don't know how far i really ran because i find it hard to believe my machine.
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